23 October 2017

My MC is Terrible (or, My Book Epiphany)

So, I had a bit of a book epiphany. And it wasn't that my MC (you know who) is a terrible character. It's that he's a terrible person! Well, sort of. Bear with me.

It's always felt like there was something I was missing from the end of the book, something I couldn't figure out. It always seemed weaker, almost flimsy when compared to the beginning of the book. I couldn't figure out how to get my book to the same conclusion but to keep it strong along the way. It seemed the path it wanted to take just made it less interesting.

Well, I was kind of smacked in the head with an idea. At work, of all places. Now, I can usually zone out and think about these things without stopping what I'm doing, but this idea seemed so intense that I actually paused and stared off into space while I considered it (hopefully no one saw me, I'm pretty sure my mouth fell open a few times). I know when an idea is this strong, then it's probably the right way to go.

So, the thing about my characters' relationship in the book is that it's all about structure. Every moment is planned, calculated. Actually, pretty much everything my MC does is calculated -- except when he's driven by emotion. As teenagers are apt to be. So as more emotions get involved over the course of the novel, the structure kind of falls apart. But I realized, why does this particular character lose the structure? It's not really like him at all. Sure, he can slip for a moment or two, show some emotion, even if it's just for the reader. But he should be able to come back to his senses and always see everything from a few steps ahead.

I realized this was my problem. He stopped calculating things, figuring them out, being manipulative--things that have been central to his character from the beginning. Why? It seems that the end of the book came because of a buildup of emotion and not an intense thought process. He really should see it coming, actually, he should see every moment of the book coming. If he doesn't know when things will happen, he should at least be aware that they will happen. The end of the book always seemed to come out of nowhere, but I think there needs to be a more obvious build to it. When emotions come into play, he should be more analyzing of his own, to see how he reacts in certain situations and how that fuels what he wants to do next. He can't just be a slave to his emotions because he never has been before. He needs to stay true to his character.

I think the tricky part now is that I need my MC to keep some things from the reader. I kinda want him to have a bit of a reveal at the end that he saw everything coming, that everything was planned out and not as spontaneous as it seemed. Hopefully this will make the ending more devastating for the reader *insert evil laugh*. So while maybe he wasn't 100% heartless throughout the book, the end will kind of smack everybody in the face (characters and readers included). I think I just have to find a good balance between what he's willing to share with the reader and how he's able to hide the rest.

Ok, I know that was super vague and did not make much sense. But the important thing is that I THINK I FINALLY FIGURED MY DAMN BOOK OUT. Hopefully once I write it out it will all make sense.

Ever been smacked by a book epiphany? Have you ever realized your character wasn't acting like him/herself and that was dragging the book down?

13 comments:

  1. Awesome that you have figured out the problem with your book. I do think it's a good idea to keep the reader guessing. I'm working on figuring out my mistakes chapter by chapter as I write my draft. I'm getting better at figuring them out and do so at random, unrelated times like you.

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  2. I love that moment when you just have to stop and let the book idea take over. :)

    Good luck!

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  3. Glad you figured it out! Even if it will frustrate your readers.

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  4. That must be a fantastic feeling to have figured your book out :-) I've had problems with secondary characters not acting like themselves, not so much with my main character though. Cheers - Ellen

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  5. Endings are the hardest for me. Glad you figured yours out!

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  6. I like twist endings, especially because it's fun when stories or characters end up surprising me. There have been times when my characters didn't act like themselves; I think it's because I tried to make them act like I wanted them to act, but they resisted it because the story didn't sound right as a result.

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  7. "Hopefully this will make the ending more devastating for the reader *insert evil laugh*." <---Love this!!

    And hooray for figuring out your book!! Woo Hoo!! I love those book epiphanies—they're such a great feeling.

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  8. Wow, glad you figured it out. Sounds like this will add some tension to your story, good and bad for your readers (all part of the reading journey). I had a character change drastically in a story once; needles to say, there was blood shed (only within the pages though).

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  9. I like it when characters keep a little bit from the reader. It leads to bigger twists and surprises.

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  10. *cheer!* Love it when you manage to figure things out. That's awesome!

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  11. I'm so happy I happen by your blog (your newest follower), because I really enjoyed your post, and I can certainly relate to it. But I have to admit, I'm not always elated when I figure something out, because that usually means a lot of work fixing it. :-) But the end result always makes me smile and feel that it was worth it.

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  12. Glad you got it figured out. From the sounds of it, this may be a book people throw against the wall before grabbing book 2 to see what happens next.

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  13. I love those moments when books suddenly come together. Go you!

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