17 December 2014

Five Secrets

I was tagged by Samantha Bryant to share five secrets about myself. The first question that came to mind was, do I even have five secrets? And then, if I do, would I be willing to share them on my blog? I figured any secrets I could share would either be really boring or really depressing, or just not secrets at all. So these five little bits of information are sort of secrets? I guess?

My hair is turning white
Not gray, but white. They've been sprouting up here and there since I was 18, but now it's starting to get worse. I've always said I would never dye my hair until it started to go gray, so now I'm actually considering it, but I really don't want to. I usually just pluck them out of my head or ignore them. I have pulled out a few white hairs that had color at the root, so I'm wondering if that's a good sign, and maybe it's stress related or something like that and the color can come back. Fingers crossed!

I had imaginary friends until I was 12
It started with one when I was 8 and then grew into an entire group. We had all sorts of adventures, occasionally teaming up with my real friends who also had imaginary friends. Sometimes there were imaginary villains. I think it goes along with being a writer and wanting to create characters and stories. When I started 6th grade it started to feel silly so they drifted away. Wait a second, I'm a writer. I still have imaginary friends. Except Jordan would make me trip down a flight of stairs if I called him imaginary. Just don't tell him about my Twitter bio...

I used to act
This isn't so much a secret, but may be surprising considering how much of an introvert I am. When I was in 4th and 5th grade, I joined the Drama Club. We would put on shorter versions of famous musicals. Instead of all of the songs, there was usually one group number and one solo for the lead--for instance, when we did Annie, we did "Hard Knock Life" and "Tomorrow." I always went for the supporting roles so luckily I didn't have to sing. I was Grace in Annie and Nancy in Oliver! It was a lot of fun but I think the idea of trying out in middle school just seemed too intimidating for me, so I never did it again.

I have no friends
I think in today's world, it's hard to say who your actual friends are. I have all of my blogger buddies, of course. I have Facebook friends, but those are mostly former coworkers. I have one childhood friend that I hang out with every few months or so. But that's about it. I'll go out with my fiance and his friends, but I really don't have any friends of my own. I had to cut ties with pretty much all of my friends after high school, which honestly is something I should have done long before then. Since then, I've had a very hard time making serious friends. I think it's equally due to my extreme social awkwardness and the fact that it's hard for me to trust people after being hurt by friends so many times. It's just very hard for me to click with people.

This is what the inside of my head looks like
In my Liebster Award post, I mentioned that I have a cerebral shunt in my head that was put in when I was 3 months old to drain fluid from my brain. Well, here's a diagram of what that looks like, courtesy of Wikipedia:

Well, those are my five "secrets." This is the part where I'm supposed to tag people to pass this on to, but I figured that would take me several months to do. So if you'd like to be the next person to share five secrets, let me know in the comments and I will tag you!


  1. I love how you had a group of imaginary friends and that your friends did, too. :)

    I was never all that great at making friends - I'm still not - but I do try, and I stay open to possibilities. It feels harder as I get older, maybe because I don't have a "normal" career and I don't have kids - I think that's how and where a lot of people meet, have things in common, etc.

  2. My imaginary friends took the form of members of a certain, unnamed boy band (!), but I had a very elaborate world with them, lol.

    And I feel you on the friends thing. Me and husband have known each other since high school, and we have some high school friends we see about once a year. I have one co-worker I see outside of work, and really, that's about it. Just each other, and family. Sometimes I wish we had more people to spend time with, but honestly, we never feel like we have enough time together as it is, so usually we're okay being loners.

  3. I get white hairs too instead of gray. They're unicorn white, and I don't mind them. They're much better than going gray. I acted in plays/musicals until I was twenty. I even wanted to be an actress or opera singer back then, which amuses me now since my social anxiety has gotten so much worse than it used to be. I can also completely relate to not having any friends that I hang out with. The last time I went out with a friend was probably 5-6 years ago. It's not that I'm opposed to going out and all, but I don't want to impose on people. I never ask someone to hang out with me. Plus, all my old friends are either in relationships and/or have children. It's just awkward.

  4. it IS hard to come up with 5 secrets I wouldn't mind putting on my blog! I think you did a great job, though. The picture of the stent is kind of amazing. And as for friends, I think friendships change so much as we get older and marry and have families, and it's something people don't really talk about. But they SHOULD, so it's not so hard for all of us!

  5. Thanks for sharing of this stuff with us.

  6. You got me thinking of secrets I'd actually want to share on my blog - you're right, it's hard to think of any that are shareable. I guess because then they wouldn't be secrets any more! I like that you and your friends had imaginary friends AND imaginary villains!

  7. Oooh, I have about three of those five traits myself. :) It's so hard to come up with five secrets! You definitely have me thinking hard about mine. I'm not really sure I have...

    I'll stop right there. I just remember a few things...
    I'm never playing this game. LOL!

  8. I am with you for the white hair / no friends thing.

    I think I started getting white hair sophomore year of collage, around 23 or so. Now, it looks as if I put white highlights in certain places around my hair line. I definitely dye it ... all the time.

    I also cut ties with my high school friends. The last day I saw any of them was the final day of senior year. Of course, my real friends were outside of high school anyways, so no biggie. But, after I moved, I've been finding it almost impossible to make new ones. I could probably blame it one my homebody ways, but I'm hoping my new job brings new friends. I only see my hometown ones around once a month.

    Loneliness seems to be a side effect of the writer's life. ;)